So very excited!

Gage, it's exactly three weeks until daddy and I have you in our arms. I so can't wait to hug you and kiss your little nose.

I have a doctor appointment today and part of me feels like they might say you will be coming before then, but then the other part has a feeling that you will stay put until the 8th of January. Build up those lungs a little bit more, please!

But I can't wait to meet you, to hold you, to just see what you look like. I'm having a hard time concentrating on anything else but I think that's okay. A big day is coming up for all of us and so it's in the front of my mind constantly. There are so many people ready to meet you!

Anyway, just wanted to write you a little note. I love you so, little one. I'm going to enjoy all your nudges and kicks but I can't wait to meet you in 3 weeks!

Remembering...

Today marks the one year mark of when Justin and I were told that our pregnancy would not end in a baby. I was reading back over my blog I wrote after the miscarriage and cried with how I remember feeling that week and the weeks after. Wow, that was a rough time. I can almost remember every thought and feeling that passed through me that day.

But as I sit here thinking about the baby we lost, I'm so thankful for the healthy little guy I'm carrying today. While I still hurt and mourn the loss of the little baby we lost, I can look to the future with a greater happiness than I thought possible at the time of the miscarriage. Gage must know I'm hurting a little about it because he's letting me know for sure he's there! His kicks (and boy have they been fun and powerful the past couple of days!) reassure me more and more of how wonderful this life will be. Knowing in 4 and a half weeks (one month from tomorrow to be exact!) that I will have him in my arms makes me so incredibly happy.

I didn't want this blog to be sad, but just wanted to take another time-out to remember the little life we lost back in December of 2011. Still think of that sweet baby daily.